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- Call us .. -

2009-05-26T17:05:00.002+08:00

- TO SOMEONE WHO CONCERN -

How you're doing?

It's been almost a year since you went to Singapore..

Everyone one here missed you =X

You promised us that you will call us when you reach there,

but you didn't.

You promised us that you will come back in no time,

but yet you didn't.

We're worried bout you.

Please.

SC and YW were the ones worried the most.

Whether you see this or not. Please.

Call us!

T_T

- Ps for not blogging -

2009-05-20T20:39:00.002+08:00

Psps, wasn't able to come online cause of personal reasons ( exam? -_- )

and personal attitude ( lazy of course ) ..

Been very very down nowadays (very down i mean )

due to personal reasons again ( not gonna tell you why >=P )

Don't know what to blog today, so psps again.

Wait me finish my exam then I'll try my best to blog something interesting =D

Got H1N1 recently ( joking -_- DON'T QUARANTINE ME PLEASE!? ) malacca trip might be cancelled due to some serious infection there. Not happy already -_-

But luckily going to HK on 5th =O

( not exactly happy anyway. Got better things to do actually T_T )

Really nothing to blog already -_-"

Okie la. Next time only blog la @_@

Psps and bai bai =D

- Infinity - And Beyond! -

2009-04-11T18:51:00.004+08:00

Wa-ka-ka-ka-

I'm back!
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Fine.

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Anyways.
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Sports Day is finally over! Yeah, I mean Finally!

Well. Didn't get any prices, because we did not win..

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BUT!

It doesn't mean we lost -_-

Well, atleast we all did our best, right?

It's not like we're always go to mamak for food every practice!

* Look around *

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Well well well.

Here comes the pictures~

This is taken during the last day of training. The others had left, so left us here taking photos -_-

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Well. As for this. Copy the sentence up there -_-

And yeah, we sure look "dead".

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Muahaha. Sports Day! See that? That's our blue house!

Not that I want to rub our own shoes, but come on, we look okay isn't it! =O
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Cheerleaders! Woot!

The fact is, the cheer members are having more pressure than we do.

They trained few times harder than us.

You can see bruishes on every one of them.

Thanks cheers, I love you guys!

( Though they don't love me @_@ )

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Hoho, took after the event ended.

Blue house marching crew, I LOVE YOU GUYS!

Muacks!

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Weell.. About this pic..

Forced to take this pic by the "miss lady" next to me.

Hey look, I have to bend myself so much just to get even with her! =D

Took this when we're taking the bus back to school.
And yeah, I'm forced to again.

But still, I look okay right? O.o
Thats all for Sports Day, tata~

Ho Ho Ho-

2009-03-08T20:19:00.002+08:00

Hehehe, how's that?

Something went wrong with streamyx, so did that during streamyx maintainence.

Took it few months ago.

( Look quite funny isn't it >.< )

Well let's see. The first one was taken in my room. I was going to sleep but well, you know, bored. So simply took a picture of my bighead.

Second one was taken ON my bed. Look so noob >.>

Third one. ( Grin ) Should know what i'm doing right? So what do you think you're looking at? =D

( E-G-O doesn't suit me. I saw people all around the world doing this then only I tried. I promise I'll never do it again. -_- )

Well laugh all you can as I am here to entertain you =D

Well, during the 3-day-no-internet life, my life is definately upside-down.

I mean it.

Everything went wrong. Like-

Running out of food in my house ( no food in cupboard and fridge)

Unlucky ( can't tell you what happened =X )

No internet ( I'm internet-addicted ya' know! =O )

Nothing special happened recently.

Just having some internet problems.

( Sorry if I annoy you but damn, losing internet connection is really a big problem for me.. )

Went for pattern practice today. Not bad.

Something special. Saw a 12 years old boy in HQ.

and DAMN! He's better than us. -_-

Such a shame~

After practicing we took Rapid back to central market. Don't know which dumb dumb pressed the bell and doesn't get off the bus.

The driver went frenzy and doesn't stop when we pressed the bell. We have to walk back to the station we're supposed to get off using 10 minutes.

Curse the driver and the #&*!#@#!

Then walked back to home using 10 more minutes.

KW and I trained the lion dance and somehow, I don't know how but somehow,

We did it! We did the stunt we'd desperated to learn!

We were so happy we forgotten the main reason he came to my house is to study =X

We did almost 30-50 times. Out of that, only 4 times succeeded. -_-

But atleast better than nothing. Don't worry, we're gonna continue!

More training on Saturday. Caaant wait!

Today my water bottle leaked when we are going back from HQ.

And my whole bag is soaked. With ICE. -_-

and what's worst is, I forgotten to take out my moral exercise book.

And yeah. Soaked as well.

Have to copy it aaall over again.

God, I'm dead.

Well. I have no more time for more poems again I suppose.

Too busy nowadays.

Have to do work, eat, study, sleep, eat, sleep, eat, sleep, eat and sleep.

Really busy. Stop laughing -_-

Wuuo'Cha!

2009-03-04T15:22:00.005+08:00

Ho Ho Ho! Hell'ot of new members on Saturday! =O!!

Quite suprised as our club suddenly "imported" atleast 15 new members, hooray!~

Looks like our performance did pweeetty well~

Form 1 to Form 5. Form 5! Lol~ Overjoy-- forgive me ^^"

Hehe, everything's going fine, except on Sunday =X.

Almost. ALMOST. I SAID ALMOST!

Almost broke my arms. *Giggles*

That's nothing. What's troublesome is..

I went for dinner and come back with a washing-machine stomach.

People with experience sure know what i means.

It felt like this.

Sheeshee~

Unable to go to school on Monday and Tuesday.

Here, I want to thank you to all my so-called "friends" for texting so-called "warm" messages like-

"Why no go skol?"

"Die ady ar?"

"Hand break? Too much break dance?"
"Masuk C?"

Lol. I think all of you understand the first 3. What's C? Heehee. I'll show you now.

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Understand? =D

Okay. Back to my deeaar club!

Well. Let's not call them newbie or noob. Let's call them Newb.. Lol joking.
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better right?

Now. They are indeed WAAAAY better than us ( KW and I of course )

They only learn a small part that day.

Back to the time when we are young..

*Flashback*

We have to do everything in one day. Well maybe not their fault.

we joined late. That's what we deserve. @_@

Lucky them. Pfft. =(

Sunday went to Puchong HQ for wushu sparring training.

Quite tough, I say.

But it was fun. Fun indeed.

KW vs Christopher. Wakakaka!

before that, we went through punchbag training.

Alex was right.

Advice to all ( I mean all. ) members who are going to sparring training.

Show some mercy to the punchbags.

Don't treat them bad.

Cause YOU don't deserve it.

What I mean you say? Well you see.

Alex said "U guzs ar, aaall lus to dee punchbags one.."

----------* You guys ar, all lose to the punchbags one..*

True. I saw a real-life example.

A quite cute-looking boy. Thought he's very good.

He kicked the punchbag very hard. Too hard perhaps.

The punchbag rebounded and slam right into his face.

I was gonna blow myself up when I saw that.

And I'm not sure that boy's stacarstic or what.

He flew up and drop on the floor.

Yes. "flew up"

Like those you see in the chinese movies.

I can't control myself but giggling everytime I see him.

Okay no more laughing =X.

I was assign by Alex to be KW's manager. Dressed him up for a fight! =O!

The fight was great. Really great. But heart breaking TT^TT

My pity KW, get beaten up to crap. Wuuwuu..

Ookay. Time's up. Gonna get back to study. So.

C'呀!

*see ya*

Btw. To someone whom concern. I'm not able to attend "xxx" cause I have a blue house marching crew to take care of. It's not that I don't want to go.

Sorry.

My favourite ~

2009-02-21T15:45:00.008+08:00

GRAWR! Best Part of My Life

- L I O N D A N C E -
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I'm sure everyone here knows what's a Lion Dance means?

Lion? Dance? Lion that Dance?
Exactly. Lion that Dance!

Well let's see. On February 18th, we had our LD performance during assembly.

Quite perfect, just some tiny problems.

1. Not enough time for more training

2. Not enough time for performance

We're allowed to perform for 10 minutes, but we used up 15 minutes instead.

I'm like come on, 10 minutes are too short! That is why we are not able to do more stunts. Sad. D=
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Anyhow. I'd started learning LD since July last year, but that's only the basics. I've only started learning skills and stunts 1 weeks before the performance on 18th. This is why I said "1. Not enough time for more training"..

Back to topic. Amy promised to throw us a party for the "first-time-perfect-performance".

We first planned to throw it on February 21st, but was kinda posponed as everyone's busy.

Sad, again. D=

And yeah, school is so far, okay. With school activities keeping me busy, I wouldn't have time wondering around my house after finishing my homework, since I don't really have any homework. =D

Our Blue House Marching Crew is almost fantastic, except for some tiny problems. Will go into details on later posts.

So then, さよなら !~

--------(Sayonara)

Certificate of *** Kicking and Dr Pain Sa-Kit's Treatment! Hot Topic!

2009-01-25T22:00:00.006+08:00

I found this cert in one of my friend's blog. Who's blog, secret. =P

So? Pain Sa-Kit. Doesn't sound human =O.
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Here comes Dr. Pain Sa-Kit. Hmm. Look like a human. =P

Here's what my friend posted :-
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"So do your body aches?

You have fractured bones?

Terrible migraine perhaps?

Do you have evil spirits bothering you?

You have this horrible pain all over your body and 10 bottles of pain-killer doesn’t help.

But you’re smart enough to not go to the local hospital for professional advice and treatment and decide to meet ‘Doctor Pain Sa-Kit’ who got no proper convincing medical certificate whatsoever.

Believing in his motto of ‘you don’t feel pain anymore when you’re dead’ you allow him beat the crap outta your ass and thanking him in the process.

Not to mention the ridiculous medical fees he’s charging you…just to kick your ass.
Good Lord!! Why?
Let us see his medical equipment:-

No matter how many times I look at it, it doesn’t look like anything a doctor will use.

Not even a masseur uses these things to massage and stuff.

Some stupid people believe that ‘when things get tough,

you just gotta get tougher’ or ‘no pain no gain’ of which doesn’t actually applies in health problems.

When a person is in pain, he should look for treatments to reduce the pain and not adding on the pain.
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However certain people believe the saying ‘cure poison with another poison’ whereby to reduce the pain you’re suffering you gotta add on more pain.

Ok now read the sentence in bold 10 times.

Does it make sense?

No, it doesn’t right?

You feel stupid by just saying it loud.

Further, these ‘medical practitioners’ fee doesn’t come cheap.

Imagine the bill they give you after the treatment (if you survive) which says “For kicking your ass = 300 bucks,

For no more pain after you’re dead = Priceless and “Thank you & Come again for more pain in the ass if you still not feeling well” doesn’t really help in convincing you that this treatment actually works."

So? Would you seek for this kind of treatment? For me, I would rather go shopping with my mom than getting a little bit pain from Mr Dr Pain Sa-Kit! ><

Homeworks =D

2009-01-24T23:40:00.003+08:00

Now here's my homeworks during the holidays :-

I gazed in your eyes,

Such a beautiful blue;

My heart whispered to me,

And that’s right when I knew;

The waves had ceased crashing,

On the sand at our feet;

Time had stopped passing,

My search was complete;

I finally discovered,

What I'd known all along;

A mystery uncovered,

That just couldn't be wrong;

It wasn't our first kiss,

Nor the day that we met;

But I realized something,

I will never forget;

With the stars shining brightly,

From high up above;

I'd one word to describe it,

That word, is love.

I knew then these feelings,

For my sweetheart were true;

The man of my dreams,

And my soulmate, is you.

I think of it every time,

That I look at the stars;

This memory is mine,

But that moment was..

..OURS.

There's nothing as nice as someone who shares,

your laughter, your secrets, your wishes and cares,

someone who's there through your good times and tears,

who stays by your side as your friend through the years.

God must have known there would be times

We'd need a word of cheer,

Someone to praise a triumph

Or brush away a tear.

He must have known we'd need to share

The joy of "little things"In order to appreciate

The happiness life brings.

I think He knew our troubled hearts

Would sometimes throb with pain,

At trials and misfortunes,

Or goals we can't attain.

He knew we'd need the comfort

Of an understanding heart

To give us strength and courage

To make a fresh, new start.

He knew we'd need companionship,

Unselfish... lasting... true,

And so God answered the heart's great need

With cherished friends... like you!

The first poem is an idea from a movie named Wishing Star. Quite touching movie. ^^

As for the second one.. Creativity =)

The third one is from a movie named He Knows It All. The starting 4 sentences is from the movie. And I edited and modified it.Yeah! >=D

Well. Haven't been having enough time to write more. So that's all for now.

Im baaaack!

2009-01-24T23:06:00.004+08:00

Well, let's see. 26 + 24 = 50, 50 divide by 30 = 1 with 20 remainings. So I've been hell'a busy for pass "a month and 20 days". Well actually, Im overseas in HK during 5th of Dec, and back at 31st of the same month. Ever experience going through new year on the plane?! Well I did not, Lol. I'm back in malayland at 9 pm++ and the moment I switched on my phone, Tons and Dozens of SMSs are pouring into my phone and I was like @#*%&$!!?

Oh, sorry for the rudeness. =X Have been under greeeaat pressure while in HK. Morning Im enjoying, night Im suffering. Thinking of my PMR results. Im so freaking scared that I might even get a Red Elephant for my history or geography. The more I think, the more I cant sleep. And whats worse is, the one living on the floor above my brother's apartment was a total freak. Now let me ask you, who would freaking push furnitures during the middle of the night and make loud and noisy noises to make people go crazy? And somemore sleeping DIRECTLY under the noise. And guess what? I went to bed at 2 a.m and fell asleep at 6.30a.m+. I know it sound crazy but, you should try that =O!

Anyway. Worked on something during the holidays. Ill pose it in the next pose. Don't feel like messing up my "journal" over here.

Been on mood swing here, no mess with me. You play with me, I kill. =O

Well. About the trip in HK. Ocean Park and Disneyland was okay. Just a lil bit too crowded. Well guess what, Im in a quite bad mood when we just entered Ocean Park and I came out wet. ( Literally ) As for Disneyland, well. Saw Mickeys everywhere. Trees, chairs and even eggs. *Pfft* Whats best in Disneyland is the Spacemount A.K.A Roller Coaster. It's waaaaay better than roller coasters in Ocean Park, but not that scary. It's really nice, especially with nice scientific background. The darkness in there will make you feel like you're falling =X. And for the Mickey Mouse Parade. The title is called the "Let It Snow Mickey Mouse Parade!" So called Let it snow. I don't even see snows. Only some girls wearing a big snow-like thing on their back, walking around smiling and releasing electrodes. Luckily Im electric proof-- =D

Hmmm well. Im in HK for amost 25 days and yeah, 5 days having fun, 20 days shopping with my mother *Pfft!* Its the best way to torture me =( . But I learned many things in HK. For example, you can see fish still jumping on the tables in the market. And guess what, I saw something funny one day in the market. An eel that has been cut into pieces. And ALL of its body is still MOVING! ~~~ Urgh. Not disguisting enough to disguise me though. I'd saw many other things more disguisting than that Lol.

And 1 more thing. I saw quite a few "mental problem" people in HK. Everywhere. Bus station, train station, Time Square HK, everywhere. Even in front of Mc Donald and IN there as well. Maybe seeing them is a habit for Hongkies.

Let's see. What's next. Oh yeah. I found something interesting happening to me in HK. I walked around HK for 4 hours. Yeah, literally walk. Go and fro from my brother's apartment and the Hong Kong convention and exhibition centre. Well. If Im not wrong it's around 10+km. I don't know cause I don't measure it. Whats weird is, I can walk 4 hours with my dad and not feeling tired. But going on a shopping with my mom, 10 minutes can make my leg "sweet and sour". If we follow the explanation of science it will be " Walking brings out more movement and it can make your legs not feeling tired easily. Standing without moving would make the legs tired easily because it is not moving. " Well it's true but, shopping means walk what. Im still walking. But it still makes my legs tired. So my explanation is - Shopping is a past tense of Killing. ( No offence, shopping lovers. Just trying to make myself clear as it happened alot to me in HK )

Thats all about the trip in HK. My hand is sweet and sour now even though I'd typed alot of words. Well Tata.

By the way, I get 3 As for PMR =) Laugh all you like ^^

Poooooems -

2008-11-11T13:34:00.003+08:00

Have been busy thinking of poems. Sorry for not posting ( should I be sorry? ).

These are the poems I wrote. Enjoy. ^^

Why is it that some people who find love,

handle it with such carelessness?

Some people search for love all their lives.

When it is found,

why put it down and forget about it,

only to realize how much it meant when it is gone?

When you find love,

hold on to it,

celebrate its feelings,

drown in them every day,

be consumed by them...

I am consumed by you xxxx.

I will never set aside my love.

I will never look for it only when it is lost.

I love you.

I will show you and tell you every day.

A thousand fair suitors all stab at your heart

Those poets of movement and jockeys of art

The high-volume vendors who hustle romance

Splashing their canvas with color and dance

The blasters of trumpets,

gold banners unfurled

They offer lush gardens in glistening worlds

Yes, bearers of torches and carvers of stone

Who whisper their sonnets and surrender their thrones

And there in your doorway, no shadow is cast

No lingering voices,

no ghosts from the past

Just a cluster of walls,

and a window of pain

Collecting the heartache like droplets of rain

Still I stand before you, with palms to the sky

No gold in my pocket,

no thorn in my side

And all I can offer,

where words have no place

Is a body that trembles,

and this love that awaits

Yo, Mama!

2008-11-05T13:00:00.001+08:00

I found this Yo Mama jokes and it freakin make me laugh to death.

Enjoy.

Yo mama so fat.....

She could declare herself as a country.

When she gets up, it turns into night.

When she walks around, people yell "RUN RUN... Godzilla!"

When she farts the makes a crater in the earth.

When she jumps she knocks the earth out of orbit.

NASA Plans to use her to plug the hole in the ozone layer.

At any given time, there are folk running around her for exercise.

Her graduation photo has to be taken by sattelite.

She measures 38-26-36 and that's just her nose.

She creates her own gravitational pull, thus small objects orbit around her.

She sat on a Nintendo Gamecube and turned it into a Gameboy.

Her belt size is measured in miles.

When jets fly by they pick her up on their radar.

She makes the grand canyon look like a basement crack.

When she eats and she's not satisfied she eats the fridge too.

When she has something stuck in her teeth, the has to use the Seattle Space Needle.

Buy or I'll Shoot!

2008-11-03T22:33:00.003+08:00

*If You Don't Buy This Magazine. Dick Cheney Will Shoot You In The Face!*

I found this front page from one of the US' magazine. I'm sure no one dare not to buy it.

*BANG*

Moon Fall -

2008-11-03T12:49:00.008+08:00

Nothing special today. Just freakin completed my goal which is setted to be done few months ago.This is it :-

When the sun get low,

the moon get high,

shine on the ocean of Beverly High.

The leaves drop,

the night falls,

May the Moon always shine on top.

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That was the first version. And after writing it, I made this funny version.

When my son get low,

my wife get high,

Dance in the pub club of OUG High.

The music rock,

the dancers talk,

May the drugs always be with you.

Think. Think. Think!

2008-11-02T22:45:00.003+08:00

Try to imagine.

What is outside of your house?

Grass

What is beyond the grass?

Earth

What is beyond earth?

Milky Way

What is beyond Milky Way?

Universe

What is beyond the Universe?

No one will ever know.

Sometimes, nothing should be explained clearly. If everything is explained clearly, there is no more mystery around us. Without mystery, we will not be curious. Without being curious, we will never discover or recover anything that is still unknown to us.

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Many people doesn't know how to think out of the box. When they are asked or ordered to do something, they will just follow every guide they have. They will try to work it out but sometimes, it wouldn't be right. And they will keep on trying to solve it with the solution they have and without realising the real problem they're having, they mess everything up.

Hence, thinking out of the box is needed when you face a problem. When you can get something right with the solution you currently have, think of another way. By thinking out of the box, even if you can't get the problem right, atleast you might get a better solution than the previous one.

There was once a physicologist experimented a test. It goes like this :

He gathered 2 type of secondary school students. Group A contains students who score very well in their studies. As for Group B, he gathered students who are only above-average. He tested both groups with a list of IQ questions. He expected Group A will win. But unfortunately, his guess is wrong. Group B had finished the questions first. How can that actually happen?

The reason is, smart students always follow everything written on the book. They always follow the law and doesn't really think out of the box. As for Group B students, although they are not as smart as the Group A students, but they can think out of the box to solve the questions.

Therefore, whenever you're facing a problem, Think out of the Box. Do not just follow one solution.

RM179. Gone.

2008-11-01T19:56:00.004+08:00

Carbonate Power,

RM179.90 original price,

bought with RM150.00.

Fleet,

High Modulus Graphite + Nano Technology,

Black 26 tightness string,

white Gouir Gousen handler pad.

Maximum degree of bending 10+ degrees.

Full muscle power + light weight.

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As for KW's,

Original Price RM150.00+,

offered price RM130.00+,

Impact ArcForce 7,

High Modulus Graphite + GS Carbon Nanotech ( Nanoscience ),

Even Balance,

C.S.Cap,

Purple 25 tightness string,

black SMS no. 97 Handler pad,

Maximum Degree of bending 15+ degrees.

Long size + Light Weight.

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Bought right after wushu, and collected it at 6.30pm.

Pictures of it will be uploaded sooner or later due to problems of my phone's camera.

Please Don't Stop The Music

2008-10-31T15:56:00.003+08:00

I've been a blog surfer and I understand why sometimes everyone dislike a blog to have a background music/song and it, sometimes annoying, will bother you listening to your own song. So to prevent this to happen, I would not play, or whatever you like to call it, a song into my blog. So, please play your own song. xD

See You Again.

2008-10-31T14:39:00.002+08:00

School's over? So fast? Actually, school ended at 10, which is right after the recess bell rang. Teacher purposely gathered almost all the form 3s and just freakin told us that we can go now. We freakin shocked because almost all of us thought that she has something important to tell us. KW and I, whom were forced to stay till normal school end time as no one can get us home.

Badminton. Rest. Badminton. More adminton. And more badminton.

Sprain my arm. So bloody hurt. Dammit.

Nothing funny really happened exept when CY's getting her full-attendence certificate, the presenter shouted her name wrongly. It goes like this = Ng.. Ng.. Ng Shiok Yie! Ng Shiok Yie?

And when CY stood up and walk to him, he only realised he read it wrongly by reading her nametag. And everyone is like.. "LOL!?"

And the teachers are laughing too. And one of them said:" Kenapa baca salah ni!?"

Well. There's not really anything extraordinary today. Just kinda disappointed in Mr. Ong for what he'd done to my precious KW! >=( I'll skip the story. Too long and I'm way too lazy today.

Okay, that's all for today I think, See you guys later than. Sayonaraa!~

School's Over -

2008-10-30T14:59:00.006+08:00

Year 2008 October 30, A.K.A Friday, last day for Form 3 students in SMKSS. School's gonna be over soon, Woot!~
Thought of a poem in school today, it goes like this: -
When Good friends find themselves apart,
they are still close, atleast in their hearts,
because they care and always will,
that's why they need to keep in touch.

For 'True Friends' can understand,
that friendship really can't be planned,
it simply happens when two person meets,
it is built by sharing, joy and smiles,
which they give to each other,
it is a gift to cherish every day of your life,
that crosses time and even miles.

Quite a number of my friends are leaving M'sia next year, to almost around the world, like S'pore, New Zealand, Australia and Iraq ( going there to die by getting killed by atomic bombs or nuclear strikes.. Just joking. ^^" )..

I will appreciate every relationship and friendship now and always. Thanks guys, for giving me such a wonderful life. Good luck and enjoy your holiday everyone. ^^
And hey KL, thanks for your lap today >=)

You. You. And just, You.

2008-10-27T08:43:00.001+08:00

I've just worked my finger out a tad bit, how awesome. Scrolling down the long list of pictures was, very nice. Not arranged in date, place or event everything was mixed up.Different emotions, different looks, different people. All bonded together in a file labelled 'My pictures', and in that, a ton of other files with a million tiny pixels forming together to create everything I call memories.There are pictures of you, and it's so bewildering to see how different things are from when that picture was taken. How situations have changed, obstacles have been overcome and bonds have been strengthened. I'm generalizing this you, because to subtly name each memory would take forever to complete. I won't say, "I hope you know who you are." because that would be just too general. It would loose its meaning, shallow-fy its depth and it just wouldn't be the same, as compared to if I do list out every picture and memory that just ran through my head.But like I said, it'll be just too long, listing every single thought that ran through my head tonight.I guess, time will keep passing, pictures will keep coming and memories will continue building. Good, or Bad. But it's pretty awesome, to see how it's nearing the end of another year. And to think of what's yet to be accumulated in that file labelled, Eric's pictures is just -dumbfounding. But beautiful at the same time.I do, hope you who reads this now know that you're in my picture box. I hope you know that little or small, big or tall- your picture inside my folder is one more picture that adds to the significance of it all.You're there because the role you play, importance you are and memory you have helped sculpt is one more tremendous significance treasured. One more picture that I looked at tonight and then smiled at.And you know, they say smiling helps increase your lifespan, so thank you. Thank you for being, you in my life.So generalized, so uncategorized and so vast you might think. But like I said, whatever size shape or category you come under my picture folder- I think knowing that you played a role in contributing a smile, would be a little blurry at first. It might just come as a little feeling. You might not be sure, if I'm talking about you. But that slight hint, that slight pang of doubt, wonder and "Is it me?", would be enough to assure you that, I am.You're special, not only because you're in my picture folder. But because that tiny picture has so much more meaning, plays s big role and contains an immense amount more of significance that you think it does.I, Love You.

Here's to Then, Now, and Later.

You are Never Around..

2008-10-24T23:03:00.002+08:00

How come you said vulnerability is okay, and that it's part of the whole process?That yes, you may get hurt but you'll pull through it and it'll only teach you and help you learn?H0w come you said that was a one pointer and that it wasn't wrong to have made that step? Encouraged me to allow the vulnerability to creep in, but expect me to be in control this time.I think I did, incautiously did. And it seemed to work. I seemed to have a firm hold on it and not let myself slip on that algae liked covered road. But then my shoes lost it's flower patterns on the rubber soles slowly. And now it looks like it's slowly wearing out.It's not all that fun anymore, not feeling like you know exactly what you're doing. Not feeling safe by your ownself and wanting to hear, see and feel. Wanting it not to be only mentally but physically present too. In fact, it's somewhat scary wanting to have someone around, and actually being scared of being alone now.So I might have been vulnerable. For that second in time. But now, it's difficult choosing to hold on, or let it slip away again. Because as beautiful as the fantasy might seem, there's a possibility that it might never- happen.
It's weird because I know how surface it all is, although there are momentary bout where it feels like it isn't.
But really, how come when I really do need you, you're never around?

Magnets' Feety Love

2008-10-23T16:15:00.003+08:00

They say opposites attract. And similarity, causes the occurrence of repelling.Making full use of Chemistry, it's like how two negative/positive terminals of magnets push away, and two opposite ends stick and get along with each other so well.It's pretty baffling, thinking of the logic of it all and how it comes about. If two things are the same, have similar thoughts and want similar things- the chances of miscommunication, tension and annoyance is so high. If just thought about in a blink though, it seems like that should be the total opposite.At the same time, when two different opinions, views and standards come about, the chances of an arrival of a new term which is tolerable to both sides, somehow just appears without a logical explanation.Everything I hold firm to and believe in, is hard to let go. Because it makes sense, seems logical and is just me. But then the seed never falls far from the tree, as different as two different clouds may look, size or shape- they both originate from water droplets. And how much more different can water droplets get.Having so much in common is nice. Thinking the same thoughts, having the same views and feeling the same feelings is comforting, because then not much needs to be said, not too different thoughts need to be voiced out and there doesn't need to be more than one explanation. Just one will do, because that other someone, just should get it now.The Chinese used to bind the feet of girls' together since young, so the shape and contour of the feet just become tiny, stunted and shaped to be, the shape of the bind. An exact replica, so to say.After a few years, the bones start to not grow naturally anymore, with the binds surrounding it. It doesn't grow longer or bigger. It remains curled in the white bandage, sitting in the same position because of the hindrance it faces from the white cloth tightly wrapped around it.After a few years of being moulded, you could remove the cloth. You could free the foot from its bondages and leave it to grow in it's own way. But inevitably, it won't ever look like a normal foot again. Sure, bandages break, bondages are released. But it's shape, size, contour, construction would have been quite permanently created.You could say, it would grow normally from now on then. Take it's own shape, find its own stability and learn to take its own steps. But it would be complete distortion, if you said it could or would be starting a new.Because what it carries on from, will be what it builds on later. It would follow the curves, bends and formation of its binds' mould. Sure, walking would be possible after, even with its tiny sole and fragile structure. But only with tiny, excruciating steps, or by having to depend on a cane -is it possible.You can't possibly reprimand a Victorian lady for wearing a corset and shaping her waist to be of a certain figure. Not at all, because what right do you have to tell her what she is to do with her body, tell her what you think she should be aiming for in context of her own body shape.The idea of beauty she holds, might only be able to be seen in her eyes, and that might be all it takes for her to be satisfied. What seems bizarre to someone else, might not seem worth even just a flinch to her.At the same time, if she totally detests high multicoloured socks (for instance), telling off someone she sees parading in them on their feet, would be despicable on her side. Because that certain spectrum of colour might be good enough to keep that certain seafood-er, happy.So like bonded feet, corsets or even multicoloured socks, antagonising someones belief or views isn't exactly the best thing to do, (unless of course it involves sticky glue and hair, that sort of thing.)It's easy to push it into the corner of the brain labeled 'unacceptable', 'berserk', or plain 'ppft', if a flaw or opposition arises from an individual because- 'I don't see the logic.'But when you have thoughts in your head you completely detest yet hold on so strongly too, then hear them being voiced out in such strong belief by someone else it becomes -scary.Because then it comes back to the whole issue of similarity, repelling. There's the immense relief having someone think the same thoughts, have the same worries and fear the same things as you, because that means they understand. But when you stop and think, then realise those are the original worries, that got yourself worrying, it gets balled up in a whole big cluster of confusion, anger, resent and mixup mystification.Noone knows if the Victorian ladies' waists would have originally wanted to be a little bigger than size zero (whichonmysideIwoulddefinatelynotunderstand). Noone knows if the bonded feet originally intended to be a size eleven and play in the NBA. Because bones don't talk, feet don't either, and being at such a young age makes knowing what you want- a little upstream. So then, you just shape yourself to fit into a corset, contour your toes to fill the bandages, and think and believe what's given and provided right from the beginning.Like I said, corsets are bewilderingly beautifully, tiny feet are excruciatingly exquisite. And someones thoughts might be thrilling to them. I believe if there isn't any wrong or danger in having an opinion, nothing should get in the way or change it.But like I said, it's the whole not knowing -whether clouds being pink would still be funny if everyone saw them as pink, right from the beginning. Not knowing if walking on all fours would be still weird, if everyone grew up doing that from the start.And it's scary, because I see myself so much in you. Certain things I know we both share and feel so strongly in, yet know can sometimes get a little out of hand because of the similar personality traits. And I don't know, if I detest seeing that part of personality in myself, or unlike you, just don't/won't know how to handle it.But I know, I do Love You.

Bad feeling about this.

2008-10-22T23:30:00.000+08:00

I love, little kids. I like the fact they can get away with ice cream smeared all over their mouths, have their little rubber soled shoes step on the plastic cushions in cafes and get away with it pretty easily.But when they get a little older than -toddler and start screaming, making a fit, being all pissy, hitting their siblings with empty plastic bags (ohhoweffective) and go all -'I want it give it to me or I'll scream my lungs out till they pop considering I'm already screaming loud enough to deafen Sarah slightly', I just feel like taking a pillow and hitting them om their little heads. Not hard enough to knock them out, just enough till they get slightly woozy and find it hard to multitask following their parents, so as to not get lost and talking at the same time.But everything aside I do, like kids- I really do.
According to JasonVoon, while he was washing tons of cups after refreshments on Sunday;Using paper cups, means you have to cut down trees.Plastic cups release poisonous gas when heated strongly causing sever ozone layer damage. If using the type you can wash, you waste water washing 'em.And styrofoam cups, are not biodegradable.So what do you do when you're stuck with a million cups to wash and the fact that somehow any type of cup -isn't all that environmentally friendly?My conclusion -"Next time I'm on coffee duty, I'll just get two hee-uge Ikea vases, fill 'em with coffee and tea for people to drink from. Ohh, and that saves all the washing I need to do (;".Instant noodles, always come with monosodiumglucomate, also known as ar-gee-no-mo-toe. Basically, this stuff is flavouring that makes your hair drop if too much is consumed.Picking up a instant noodle package which seemed pretty okay seeing it had this sign saying, 'Non-Fried-Noodles' on it, I checked the labelled at the back and went,"Mummy, it says monosodiumglucomate. That's the thing that makes you grow bald right?"She replies, "Yeah, if you take to much it does." But then, she pauses and adds-"Oh, check if it's from Singapore. Cause I trust the monosodiumglucomate there more, should be fine."So now, I know that Mummys preference and confidence in Singapore food is much higher than Malaysia's. And ohwow, I could not agree more.So loves, buy Singapore products, to add a few more years to your life.